H.O.P.E. (feat. Haben)

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless I'm tired of going through the motions I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end Show me the way Show me the way out Is there a way? I'm tired of feeling so hopeless Social anxiety from a broken society My appearance invincible but I'm torn up inside of me The introverted Introspective At times I'm insecure but still we learned That a dream deferred is not a dream deserted You tell yourself "it's not that bad", it really is Tryna filter like u feed 'em a selfie You been tryna bury these burdens so deep it's unhealthy Just cuz you carry it so well don't mean it ain't heavy yeah I used to think that suicide's for the weak and the selfish I used to think depression's not a disease in itself cuz I used to underestimate the darkness in the mind of a person That's hurting with self hatred and feeling helpless I knew this girl that had witnessed Her closest friend get murdered by her boyfriend A lost soul at the cross roads Just a teen full of big dreams now her heart cold Forever stained by the ink of this dark soul So now she traumatized in her mind And she feeling like she stuck in chains So she looking for something to numb the pain And you can tell by the needle marks all across her arms She gradually graduated to letting go of God Her father found out but it seems like he don't give a It's been some years now and he starting to get sick of it To say his daughter is a junkie, face it At night he tries escaping reality till he's wasted So now her mother took a second job never off She be working late every single day she exhausted She gives her own daughter the money to go buy the heron Just so she won't be out in these streets selling her body Or selling her soul But she enables her in spite though Trapped in this vicious cycle That's the devil's disciple They hate it when I say it but I love 'em Cuz the mother is my auntie the addict's my little cusin True story I'm tired of feeling so hopeless I'm tired of going through the motions I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end Show me the way Show me the way out Is there a way? I'm tired of feeling so hopeless Hold On Pain Ends Hold On Pain Ends I don't feel like there's any way out But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends Hold On Pain Ends Hold On Pain Ends I don't feel like there's any way out But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends Social anxiety from a broken society My appearance invincible but I'm torn up inside of me I never been the type to start questioning God but see This just really don't make sense honestly Cuz he been coming to my shows since he was only ten Dragged along his mother, his aunty, I start to notice them Show after show, year after year, the lil' homie was there Sometimes i ain't had no crowd it was only them So naturally we start to grow as friends From my biggest fan to my fam I really seen him grow up since From a teen to young adult to a future doctor You made your mama so proud king, who can stop ya!? But then we heard about the cancer in your brain You in your early twenties, this madness it's insane But you fought it like a soldier that's in battle through the rain Only child to a single mother, imagine what a pain That your mama go through Anna baby, we love you He was your angel on this earth now the angel above you But now we suffocate with hurt and this pain we succumb to Man how you gon' die right before my career take off Cuz we finally made it dawg you can smile my boy Josh we did a song with Nas my boy Wish you came along on this ride my boy Could've never done it without you, on God my boy Was asked to perform at your funeral I couldn't do it I'm tryna hold my composure not even show no emotion But really homie I'm broken Some people say the tumor must be from the vaccination Some people say you was too healthy how that cancer came in All I know my heart bleeding like a laceration Deep inside I'm badly aching And this wound never gon' heal I'll never know how you deal Hope it will get easier may God grant you patience Just hold on I'm tired of feeling so hopeless I'm tired of going through the motions I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end Show me the way Show me the way out Is there a way? I'm tired of feeling so hopeless Hold On Pain Ends Hold On Pain Ends I don't feel like there's any way out But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends Hold On Pain Ends Hold On Pain Ends I don't feel like there's any way out But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends